God if you are really there please kindly guide the lost sheep back home.
If you are there please guide the lost soul back to its owner
life has not been easy for me
God if you don't mind i might need your help
Kindly guide me back onto the right path perhaps
your help will be greatly appreciated
Have not been blogging for the last four months
I am keeping myself very very busy
for the first 2 months had been hanging with one of my very best guy friend
almost every single off day
Just want to refrain myself from being alone ( I might have some wild imagination )
He has been my side every time i need him i swear he is always there
on the 3 month he pop a question why can't it be him
he is way better than 'dolly'
yes he might be right but I got pissed for some reason i guess ( i don even know what is the reason )
I told him straight off his not at all attractive to me
from then on i shut myself up from the outer world
but i need to do something
this came into my mind
watching korean variety , drama getting all sorts of information on k pop
and yes
been in front of the computer for more than 3 months
going around korean idols
I even took up a korean lesson to keep myself real busy
but im lost really lost
what should i do?
what should i do ?
hello god
have you forgotten all about me ?
I need your guidence here
last thu i went to bed around 12 +
received a msg from a familar no. which is from a familar stranger
I knew its him
however for the sake of him I told myself I have to act as though i do not know him
since this is the way he wanted it to be
I told myself do the way he wanted
since my withdrawal is for him to feel blessed
although the reason for him to sms I don know
but he seems apologetic
he is always thinking of others before him
he should have been more selfish
I caught a cold on sun i guess
Fever on mon when im at work
feel so awful actually wanna leave work for home half way through
i didnt even attend class that day.
for my usual pratice i wont work when im sick
but i continuing working
I even drag myself to work the next day with my feverish body its really awful
mum ask me to stay home
even my maid do not want to wake up for work on tue
despite that i drag myself to work
wondering why
ah i still got this kind of persistant
i admire myself for dragging myself to work
with that high temperture
im great
I dragged myself to work is because the company management
has just approved the 3days 2 night outing
I read the email on mon
that we will be in the organising committee
If I were to go on MC on tue he would be incharge of doing all the invitations , itnernary etc.
after his promotion i guess he having too much of a stress
do not wish to add on to his burden
I have to go work
and this how i drag myself to work
i was feeling better today mum forced me for medi ytd night and my friend brought me pocari sweat ( my life saver )
one colleague of mine came up to me today
and say there is an extra can of drink on the desk as if i want it ?
you know what ? its pocari sweat.
it totally impossible to buy an extra can of pocari sweat in my working area
i swear IMPOSSIBLE !
he then say someone brought but does not want his name to be mention
I knew who is it
that familar stanger ~
ah he wanted to lighten his feeling of gulity
but anyway thanks
一切都会好转，
因为我相信
had been damn freaking bz lately...
might be due to the company launch
or im trying to immune myself from all that is happening to me.
I felt guilty , bad , evil recently
and cos of all the mixed feeling inside me
feeling god damn down down
nv felt so down b4....
and back in office still have to act back my cheerful self
its awful
been smoking like hell
oh god...
i ruin my cousin career
its scatter....
eventually we close down...
its all my fault
i should be not yi qi yong shi....
i should not blew everything up....
if not course they wanna save mi things would not turn all this way
if not for me they would still be outside
if all not for me...
just this mth.....
i know what is the feeling of being betray by ur best friend
all who know mi well u will heard me telling you about my china dream
i wanna go over there to further pursue my career
go there start anew.
start my 1st career there
i draft up proposal and stuff
and manage to get partnership and whatso ever
everything goes smoothly as plan
but in the end that stupid fellow ruin everything
she went to all my partner to persuade them to invest in her instead
what the hack
i trusted u
and in the end is this how u gonna treat mi ?
and this mth i lose a friend
a friend that is so important
i tot we could stay as friends
but anyway if this is your decision i respect it
if this might cheer you up abit.....
i believe things must be tough for him as his face look even more shag than i am
hope things might turn for the better for him.....
actually tot of resigning cos might be going china
but for now i think i sld stay in this company
i don wanna anymore changes as for now
let me settle all the things bit by bit first
i don wanna change a new environment n learn everything all over agin
it suck !
life really sucks...
especially this month.
oh god take me with you please
i don wanna stay on earth
i lose everything
im lost to this world
please take mi with you....
please....
The Empress Bed !
when its too cold she cover her face with the hat ! the new style !
ICE !!! I love this pic too !!
The Nerd in action !
On the train going up to Jungfraujoch !
Mi with the largest waterfall in europe !
I love this !!
The streets !
Casino !
Shag after the snow fight !
The drama ! F4 ! wahaha
Its freezing !
Let it snow ~ Let it snow ~ Let it snow ~
In the supermarket !
The Ducks !
The maggie in process !
When things get a little bored i start missing him
The pillow fight !
yummy ! i love the oysters !
when we dance at the dance at the hall i feel as though im the empress of the palace ! wahaha !
Inside the palace ! 
loitering around Versailles palace when the workers go on strike again..
Versailles palace !
Mummy and daddy !!
haha what are we doing when everyone is looking ?
Close up !
My sponge Bob !
Its cold ! brr ~~~
All i wish for christmas is YOU !
The tickets for the Seine River Cruise !
When i grab celine auntie to do the stunt with me !! wahaha !!
Can you imagine how cold is it ? look at her face ! it damn cold !
the toillet on the cruise ! its damn freaking small !
I wonder did anyone saw this when i did this stunt ?
The nice building i like !
can u imagine how bored we are ??
with the water hose ! I love this pic too !
I love this pic i don kon why ! pretty ?
they dare me to open my mouth big ! its cold brr~~~
On the Seine river cruise ! when the flash is a little too bright !
I look fat cos of the mo. of clothes im putting on ! anyway i love the ear muffle he brought !
Their public transport ! 
In the hotel lobby when things get too bored !
The Victory Wall ! Only Warrior who won in battle are allow to walk through this wall !
Volk wagen ! isn't it small ? can u imagine how big size a european is ? squeezing into this small car ?? anyway its cute !
Im kind of falling in love with the trees in europe ! their trees were so beautiful ! maybe is because 外国的月亮比较圆！
My family !
The popcorn shop ! im loving it !!
after the long hrs of flight. We look shag plus the strike going on with the immigration officer really do make ppl kind of pissed even in a travel mood !
straw bag 
